For the people from either side of the border – there is no border. There never was.

“Look at the other side of the river. It’s Bangladesh!” Our driver-and-guide said in delight, pointing at a piece of land across the river that looked no different to where we stood.

“At nights you will get to see bright lights glimmer across the river bank.” He said so excitedly that I wondered if Bangladesh had special kind of lights. 

Our country was divided. In 1947. Those who were once Indians, were no longer one of us. No longer Indians. It made no sense – we looked more or less the same, we practiced the same religions, we loved the same sport, and we spoke the same language. Despite that, they were no longer Indians.  

And here we were in 2018, at the borders of two nations.  Here we were, at the banks of the river that flows from India into Bangladesh, and ritually floods the country, each monsoon.

“Where’s the border? I asked our driver when I noticed two armed Indian border security patrollers standing atop a hill, watching us from a guard post. The security-post overlooked the river embankment.

“Those rocks, can’t you see?”

“No, I don’t. There are rocks everywhere.”

I wanted to take pictures, so I cut across the stony embankment to get to the far end of the riverbank. I passed by a group of people; some casually strolling and others either checking or playing games on their phones. Two were peddling street food, and a lady was vigorously washing clothes on the river bank. 

I didn’t go far when I heard a faint whistle from the hill top. I ignored the whistle and continued walking. But the whistling grew louder, and more insistent.

I looked behind me – people were staring at me, and from the distance of the hill a border patroller was motioning me to return.

I had accidentally crossed the border. 

And as indistinct as the line was, I didn’t know how far I should retrace my steps to return to “India”. So for a few seconds, I stood in an uncomfortable suspense. And in those few seconds, I took pride in my rebellious nature. I was now a law-breaker.

I read about the inane 1947 partition, and the 1972 civil war in history books. I have had friends whose grandparents were forced out of their homes during the partition or fled the civil strife. I know that each year Bangladesh is ravaged by floods; floods that makes its fields untenable, its land uninhabitable and its people driven into deeper poverty.

As I hesitated, a vendor interrupted and asked me if I would like to buy red-spiced ‘bogori’. Or Indian berry! 

As a kid I loved spiced Indian berry so much that I would save my pocket money to buy it from the street vendor outside the school gate.  He would wrap the berries in an old newspaper, and my defiant self would smuggle it into the classroom. This, despite the school’s strict rules not to bring food or eat inside classrooms.    

In no-man’s land, I found a childhood joy. “Is that bogori?” I asked, and just as he confirmed, a patroller with a gun in hand came prodding towards me. All this while, I was not aware that the whistling was directed at me, and had worsened.   

It’s then when I found out that the vendor was Bangladeshi.

“Am I not allowed to buy from him?” I asked the approaching patroller. In a good-humoured countenance, he shook his head ‘no’ and walked right past us – between the vendor and I. But he did not stop, and said not a word to either of us. He walked away, some distance from us. I understood that the uniformed man was giving me leeway to finish what I had set out to do.

“How much?” I asked hurriedly, determined to smuggle a box of Bangladeshi-bogori into India.

The bold vendor quoted a ridiculously high amount, but I didn’t care. I was jubilant; I was willing to pay anything for that, I was eager to buy from the man across the border. 

But the truth – which I realised later as I do most truths – was more twisted than my eagerness to eat those spiced Indian berries.  I like breaking rules: Rules that don’t make sense. Rules that defy common sense. Rules that give no credence to humanity. Rules that do not honour feelings. Rules that assume that imaginary lines can separate people forever.

So I am glad that I could be there, amongst people who could have been Indians. I am glad I could buy my favourite spiced berries from a man who is no longer Indian but is still one of us.

For the people from either side of the border – there is no border. There never was. There are only rocks, and the crystal clear waters of a river that silently flows across the land.

Radhika Mīa